i should learn to take it easy/take things lightly,lower my expectations
i dont want to get my hopes up and watch them fall everytime.
take for instance, if you didnt expect xx to say or do something,so when xx does that, you will be damn damn damn damn bloody happy la(k, happy is not exactly THE word.insert whatever word u want)
let say u are hoping xx will say or do that particular thing right, so u start to imagine blah blah blah and or the wat ifs, but guess what?xx didnt say or do it in the end.u end up feeling disappointed and pissed.

was talking to mumsie just now.
told her about it
and she couldnt agree more.(on top of that she gave me one cock example too la!i shant mention it here)